I've been thinking about it since we got home from the beach. See, at the beach you are so preoccupied with having fun, applying sunscreen, building sandcastles, looking for crabs, eating crabs (rather watching other people eat crabs.. gross), reapplying sunscreen, talking walks on the beach, swimming in the pool, shopping, taking long naps, reapplying sunscreen, etc. to really think about anything else. But since coming back, all I can really think about is Nathan's up coming appointment to check out his lump over his eye. I try not to let my mind go there, I really do. But it's hard. I see that I have been clearly blessed with healthy children and then I think, "but are they really healthy?" I know, I know, I know.. "Give it to God. Pray." I have. I do. But I am human and my mind goes there. It goes to the place where everything isn't OK. Do you ever wonder if parents whose kids have been diagnosed with a horrible disease ever think, "but just yesterday s/he was just fine. Playing. Happy". I almost feel like I'm watching my life in front of me and I'm yelling at myself to "WATCH OUT!!! It's about to get rough!!" I know I have been given no reason to worry. The pediatrician even said he thought it was just a dermoid cyst. But still.. the thought is there. It's so scary to me that I can't even type it out. Please, just pray for Nathan. Pray that the lump is nothing. That it will be easily, successfully taken out and that will be that. I'm shaking even writing this. Pray for me. I just want my kids healthy. That's all. Nathan's appointment is Thursday at 2:30pm.