Today is a much better day than yesterday. Yesterday I was just overwhelmed. I was tired.. although I'm still tired now it's not the same. I guess I just looked at all I had to do, then looked at my kids and knew they still needed me to do for them and take care of them and then looked closer at Nathan and realized the poor little baby still wasn't feeling great and it just felt like the weight of the world was on me. I started to get tense and just worked myself into ball of nerves. I hate it when I do that, because I do it completely to myself. I know things will get done and everyone will be taken care of.. things always work themselves out. I know that. But knowing and accepting it are two different things. Anyway, after Kent got off of work we went to what was supposed to be Jon Kent's first basketball practice but they closed the gym (without telling us). So we went and grabbed a bite to eat and then came home. I cleaned the kitchen while the gingerbread baked. Kent gave the kids a bath and then we decorated the gingerbread (as yall have already seen). The night ended with Kent with his PSP and me with my book. It was great. Relaxing.
Today is just a lazy day. The kids are all still in their PJs and the only reason I'm not is because I have to grab one more gift and then get my eyebrows waxed. My daddy is coming over after lunch to watch the kids for me until Kent gets off of work.. which is an early day for him (2pm). Tonight will be just family night and we are going to build our gingerbread house. It should be a good time. I'll be sure to post some pictures later. Then after the kids are all snug in their beds I plan on curling back up with my book and finishing it.
Tomorrow is Christmas Eve (I.Can't.Believe.It). We are going to have Christmas Eve supper with my parents and brother and nephew. I'm looking forward to it. I'm making chili and ham rolls. We may or may not do something with Kent's family earlier in the day. I need to call and see what the plans are there. Since Kent's sister is seriously dating this other guy she is having to squeeze time in with two sets of families. Ahhhh.. I remember those days.... anyway... I can't wait though until tomorrow night.. the kids all excited in their beds.. wondering if Santa is here or not.. Getting to play Santa and setting everything out.. can't wait!! I love being a parent.. especially during times like these. We plan on reading to the kids about the birth of Jesus (the whole, complete and only reason there is a CHRISTmas) and then "The Night Before Christmas" before sending them to bed. Just another tradition we have started and want to keep doing in our family. I hope, when the kids are older, that they look back fondly at their childhood.
Well, this post ended up longer and completely more random than I first intended. Sorry! I hope to be back later with some pictures!! Stay tuned!