Becoming Me

I'm doing this entry because Brandi is having a little contest. It's all about how different times, situations, etc in my life have shaped me into the person I am today. So here is a series of things that helped shape me, partly, into who I am today.

August 26, 2003 was the day I found out we lost our first conceived child. That evening I would see our 13 week old (gestation) baby on a sonogram monitor without a heart beat. I could clearly see his arms and legs. I laid on that table in awe of what was happening. I was seeing my baby for the first and last time. Two days later I would be signing rights over to the hospital to "properly dispose" of my first baby. I was 20 years old and in some ways still a baby myself. I never knew grief like what I was currently going through. I just knew that I was a parent to a child that I would never hold.

December 15, 2003, I was looking at the sonogram machine, again at my 2nd conceived baby. She also didn't have a heartbeat. My already broken heart then shattered. I literally broke down and cried for hours and hours. That day I saw my 2nd baby for the first and last time.

How did this shape me into who I am today? I learned that life isn't fair. That no matter how badly you want something, someone, if it isn't the right time it will not happen. I learned to wait. To be patient. To know that life has it's bad times, but if you will wait.. stick it out.. just keep on keeping on life will turn around. You will be rewarded for your faithfulness. On November 15, 2004, I was rewarded with a healthy, alive 5 pound, 8oz little boy who pulled the pieces of my heart back together and filled it with love.

6 days

Tomorrow we are leaving out to go house hunting in South Carolina. For 6 days it will be just Kent and me... and our realtor, at least part of the day. I have never been away from my kids this long. And this whole time I was looking forward to it.. I would get giddy at the thought of it.. but now.. now that I am just hours away from kissing my babies good by.. not so much excitement. I cried this afternoon. I think the whole situation, us moving and all, is finally hitting me and sinking in. We are moving... away from family. We are moving to where no one really knows us. I'm going to miss my babies something terrible. Oh.. and Nathan is running a low grade fever. I'm hoping it's teething or something. Of all times...

We are carrying the laptop so I'll should be able to pop on and off and let y'all know how the house hunting is going. Our life is fixing to get hectic and busy. I'm trying to hold on for the ride.

Improv Afternoon

Zoey and I had hair cuts today at 1pm. So we went and did that and left the boys with the great grands. It didn't take us long and we soon returned to the great grands. They had set up a slip-n-slide and Jon Kent and Nathan were enjoying that. So naturally Zoey joined in. They spent a good hour and a half playing and running around. Around 3pm we came home and Jon Kent and Zoey crashed on the couch. They were out for the count. When Kent got home we decided to grab something to eat and head to the park in the town over from us. On the way Nathan fell asleep as did Zoey, again. So to let their siestas be a bit longer we drove the car through the car wash and then grabbed something to eat. The car wash woke Zoey up, but not Nathan. As we were leaving Chick-fil-A the kids wanted to know where we were going. We told them it was a surprise. As we pulled into the park excitement rose out of the backseat. "THE LAKE!!! THE PARK!! THE SPLASH PARK!!" We grabbed a shaded bench and ate supper. Then we headed over to the playgrounds were they were told NOT to get in the water area because we didn't bring any extra clothes (we didn't realize they would have the water area opened already). So they played around, every so often looking over to the water area with puppy eyes.

After awhile I remembered that I had a set of clothes in the car for each of them that I took along on our trip to South Carolina for "just in case". So with that we decided to let them play. They were THRILLED and we got to be the "cool parents".

Then, out in the distance, we heard it. Like a musical jewelry box on wheels.... THE ICE CREAM TRUCK!!!!

Kent: You got any cash in your pocket?
Me: No.
Kent: Me either.
::silence::

::light bulb goes off:::

Me: I have some in the car.

Kent: Here are the keys. Hurry!

::running like a fool:::

In the mean time Kent tells the kids to get out of the water. "But why? I don't want to go home!" As they came walking to the gate they see me and the ice cream truck. They were so excited!! $5 later and we were all happy O'villers.

I later told Kent that was the best $5 I've spent in a long time. The whole time we were eating and just enjoying each other Jon Kent kept saying, "Thank you for planning all this! Thank you!" No, little man.. thank you!

Improv afternoons. They are truly the best!

The Princess with her crown

$154 dollars later...

I'm sure we'll be getting a bill for more later. It's silver, which I'm not thrilled with. But at least when it falls out the tooth fairy will have to cough up more money for it. At least it did when I was little. ;o)

A crown for the princess

Kent and I took the kids to the dentist today. It was just for their 6th month cleaning. Neither really cried, which is a first. I'm hoping we have gotten over that. Jon Kent's teeth were perfect. No cavities. Zoey.. well her same tooth that has been giving her problems (cavity this time last year) now needs a crown. This tooth never really formed right and has very deep crevices so it's hard to keep clean. But now it's just decaying from the inside. So they are just going to crown the whole thing. We go for that first thing in the morning.

Memorial Day

Getting a bean bag that went with one of the games.

Zoey and Nathan with their great Granny.

Kids table

Playing in the rain.


"It's messing up my new hair cut!"

Nathan's First Haircut

I want to go on record as saying that I wanted to let Nathan's hair grow and grow and grow. As long as his hair never got cut it would be one more thing to keep him my little baby forever. However, his daddy has been nagging asking me to cut his hair forever. So I figured I would just cut it myself. First time ever! I was a bit nervous but it turned out pretty cute. I didn't mess his head up or anything, so that's good. If you don't see him everyday you probably wouldn't even notice. Can't believe he's already old enough to be getting his first hair cut.

Our sick update

Zoey is back to herself. Miss Sassy.

Kent is almost there. Still isn't getting too far from his "throne" though.

I got about 4 hours sleep last night. The couch isn't comfortable.. at all.

Tomorrow will be cleaning up the house and having Memorial lunch with the in-laws.

I'm feeling blah-ish. I'm hoping it's just my body telling me I need more rest.

So with that.. I'm off to bed!

Night y'all!

Saturday loneliness

I'm the only one awake. Zoey is feeling much better after her 4.5 hour nap. She has eaten her first full meal in two days. Kent is better. He is still pretty tired and weak from his whole ordeal, but he also managed to eat a whole meal this evening. He was running a fever earlier, but I think it has since gone back to normal. He will get the whole bed to himself for at least one more night. Until I get a chance to wash the sheets. Plus, gives me time to test out all the other beds for comfiness. So far Jon Kent's bed is comfortable.. for one.. not two. Maybe the couch tonight? Who knows. Oh the excitement...

Moving along...

Poor Jon Kent. He has been stuck indoors for two days now. One on account of the sick ones needing tending to, but mostly because of the rain. Will it ever stop? But finally this afternoon, once Zoey was feeling better, I said forget it and we went out and played. They got wet by sliding down the slides, riding their Jeep around and just running and falling in the wet grass. They had a ball roaming the yard, finding mushrooms and smashing them with their feet. By the time we got back inside they were wet, dirty and tired. So bath time it was. They were all in bed by 7:50 and shortly there after sleep. Besides the sickies and just being bored, today turned out better than expected.

Chilling out under his "tent".

Yeah.. I really don't know what he was doing.

New Blog name

Adventures in Sickville.

Jon Kent, Nathan and myself are so far dodging the sick germs. But really, you can't tell if we really are. I'm hopeful that we are. I certainly don't want anything that Kent and Zoey currently have.

Zoey is currently into her 4th hour of nap. I've figured it up and in the last 24 hours she has been asleep for 17 of those hours. "Sleeping.. it does a body good!" At least for Zoey that seems to be the case.

I slept in Jon Kent's bed with him last night. That was a joy.. let me tell you. A twin bed and the two of us. I woke up stiff. And early.. 5:45am. All the kids and myself were up.. Kent was still recovering. Zoey lasted two hours before she was back out.

This is random.. I know.

Nate just woke up.. must go.

Lysol anyone?

I'm all out. As I have sprayed anything that would have been touched by anyone. Kent spent a good bit of time in the "facilities" this afternoon. Let's just say he is now empty and still laid up in bed. I have no idea if what Zoey has/had is also what Kent has. Or if what Jon Kent had a few days ago was the beginning of all this. OR that Nathan's plethora of poopie diapers is also a part of this. So far, if they all do have something to do with each other, I'm the only one who hasn't gotten it. And I would like to keep it that way, thankyouverymuch. I'm really hoping that all this is gone by the morning. I was dearly hoping for a nice long weekend with my family. Kent has until Tuesday off and I would like to actually see him some of it.

In other news, I'm twittering. Well, I've off and on been twittering but now I guess I'm going public with it. So it's on my right sidebar for any who are interested.

This afternoon or early evening, forget which one at the moment, Jon Kent and Nathan were playing in their room. I had the camera, snapping shots of them and I told Nathan to say cheese. He did. And then I was then able to get it on video. So hopefully you can hear and understand him.




Oh and one last thing, Zoey ended up sleeping 5.5 hours today. I do believe that is the longest nap she has ever taken besides when she was a little baby. She woke up feeling tons better though. It seemed to be just what she needed.

Oh brother

With Zoey being sick today (I think she has thrown up 4 or 5 times) and currently still napping (5 hours now) Jon Kent and Nathan have had to play together. Which is fine with Nathan. He has been stuck to his big bubba lately. Oh.. did I mention Kent is laid up in the bed not feeling well either? Yeah.. my house is full of sick germs.

A quote from me.

"When you have children at home, silence is only a good thing when it's nap time."

'nuff said.

Outside play, poopie day and Graduation in May

Today was one of those days. It had a lot of high points and one major low point. Let's get started, shall we?

The kids and I went out fairly early today for some play time. It was filled with playing baseball, riding bikes, playing on the monkey bars, riding the jeep around and running without a care in the world. I absolutely love mornings like today.

While we were outside I realized that I needed to run to the bank, so my mother-in-law kept Jon Kent and Nathan while Zoey and I zipped over to the bank to see my momma (my bookkeeper ;o)). I opened up two new savings accounts, one of which was Nathan's first account. It only took me a year to get it opened. Then we headed home for lunch and naps. Nathan didn't get to eat lunch because he was overly ready for bed. He ended up sleeping 2 and half hours. While he napped the others ate lunch and then it was time for nap. Zoey partook in the napping festivities, Jon Kent did not. I cleaned both bathrooms and the kitchen and straightened up the house and played a couple of hands of Uno with Jon Kent. I also washed and dried my bed covers because Jon Kent puked in our bed at 3:30 this morning. Once Nathan woke up from his nap I fed him lunch and he ate while I finished straightening and start vacuuming some of the rooms. When I got done I went back over to Nathan and he was ready to get down. I looked down and it looked like Nathan has spilt his cup all over the bottom part of his shirt (to have been so lucky), but what it turned out to be was poopie that somehow came out of the front top part of his diaper. All over is shirt, all over his stomach, it was everywhere except his back. When I went to get him out of his clothes he automatically put his hands all in it, so to the tub he went. Jon Kent kept saying, "I can't wait to tell Granny and PawPaw about the bad news. About how Nathan poopied all over his shirt." Bad news indeed. So I finally got him cleaned up and redressed. It was time for Zoey to get up so I went and woke her up and finished vacuuming. Then Granny and PawPaw came and took the kids to the park. After they left I finished dusting and straightening and then hopped in and out of the shower and got ready for Kent's little brother's graduation. I then ironed Kent's uniforms and started supper. The kids arrived home just as supper was finishing, we all sat down and ate then got ready to go to the graduation. This graduation was a lot less crowded and didn't involve me panicking over anyone potty training. It was a short and sweet ceremony, only 19 were graduating so we quickly took some pictures afterwards and headed home.

To which everyone was thrown, OK lightly tossed, into the tub and then off to bed they all went. And so another day comes and goes. How quickly they seem to do that.