Monday, October 26, 2009

My kids aren't going to be little forever


This realization is hitting me hard lately. I was updating Nathan's baby book tonight and when I do that I always compare his stats to Jon Kent and Zoey's. Who was bigger at X-age, etc. Tonight when I flipped through Jon Kent's baby book I realized something. I have two more "entries" in his book and it will then be completed. His baby book will be done. That is so sad to me. His 5th birthday and his first day of school is it. And his "baby years" will be gone. Just. Like. That. Oh how time flies. Oh how I am going to look back on these years when they are older and long for them again. Sometimes my womb even aches for them to be back in there. I just want to hold them in and keep them safe. To keep them from this world and all the bad things that are out there. But I know that with the bad, there is good. And the good is what makes moments to put in baby books, in blogs. I love my kids more than life and while I wish they could stay where they are right now forever, that just isn't the way life is. It means they are living. That they are healthy and growing and experiencing. They are breathing and living life. What more could I ask for? No, they won't be little forever. But they will be my babies.. forever.

3 comments:

Taking Heart said...

Ohhh. So sweet. Your babies are as precious as can be. I loved reading each of their birth stories... and first birthdays, too!

I can't say that I was so nice to my three today... I was one hot mess before dinner time... blogged about it, of course. We are no worse for wear...

And now I sit and wonder at how those rotten little children of mine so swiftly became perfect in every way as they fell fast asleep tonight.

You are right... they won't stay this little forever... but for forever... they will be our babes.

Kristine said...

Omg, I just wrote a similar post on my struggles with M becoming a big sister. It's so hard to watch them grow up while you want to cling to everything "baby" about them.

Bridgett said...

I understand....
I truly do.