Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Why me?

Why am I a mother? And why am I a mother to Jon Kent, Zoey and Nathan. Why not 3 other kids and why not another mother for the 3 that I have?

These are questions that have been running through my mind lately. And the reason they have been running through my mind lately is because I have been questioning my mothering. Of late, I have just been feeling overwhelmed with my responsibilities. Have these 3 lives that I am supposed to mold and shape into productive citizens.

Am I doing it right? Am I doing enough?

More questioning.

Are my kids getting what they need from me or am I selling them short? Are we doing enough educational activities? Are we doing enough fun activities? Are we having enough family time? Am I a good example for them to look to?

Motherhood is hard. And sometimes I want to bust out of it like my hair is on fire.

I want to know, now, if I am doing enough. Or if I need to do more. I want the very best for my 3 and I want to be able to give it to them. I want their little love tanks to be full and never lacking.

So, again, why me? Why am I their mother?


5 comments:

Stephanie said...

I could have written this myself. I think we all think these things from time to time. But I doubt you need to!

TnL's Mommy said...

You are the perfect Mommy for those precious 3 children! They are yours cause they were meant to be yours! You do an amazing job of teaching them & giving them lots of experiences!

Brandi said...

Being a Mother is a very hard job. There are days I feel very overwhelmed but the smiles, laughs, hugs, and kisses are well worth all the stress and worries. Emily you are a wonderful Mom. Keep up the good work :)

Kristine said...

Your an amazing mother! Even someone who's never met you IRL (ie: me, lol!) can see that. :)

Bridgett said...

I don't think you need to stress, Em. From what I can tell, you're the ultimate mommy.

Never doubt it...