Thursday, March 3, 2011

In the here and now

I'm 6 days away from going back to my GYN doctor to have my "lady bumps" reexamined.  I'm not thrilled about it.  But it is what it is.  In all honesty, I haven't been overly nervous about the visit-until a few days ago.  I guess the closer it gets, the more I think about it and worry over it.  I know I shouldn't worry.  I am called to hand it over to God.  But it's hard.  It's strange, really.  I have a very real peace about the whole thing.  I guess because I know that whatever the outcome may be, that it was always apart of God's plan.  Which is easy to say at this moment in time.  I pray that I can say that again if things don't go "my way".

Kent and my anniversary is coming up- 13 days from now.  We will be married for 9 years.  Crazy to think that almost a whole decade has come and gone.  I still feel like we should be married only a year or two at this point.  But so much of life has already past us by.  Granted, we have lived a lot of life in those years- 3 kids, 3 different houses, 6 different cars, 2 different churches, a major job promotion, a major move of hometowns, vacations, holidays, balls games, etc..etc..etc. A lot of life lived indeed.

I'm in a rut.  A writing rut, a creativity rut, a want to do more with my life rut.  I feel the need to do more and I am not really sure what more is.  That last sentence probably didn't make a whole lot of sense.  Ah, that's OK.  This whole post is so random that I am not expecting many (any?) people to even get this far.  I don't know what it will take to get out of this rut.  But I sure do wish the answer would reveal itself soon.  Make my life a whole lot easier.

Random.. describes this post.  Describes my current life.


Scribe said...

nursing school.... (time to think about delivering babies...)



Brandi said...

Trust in God. He will get you through your rut. (((hugs)))

EmilytheCreative said...

Well.. was accepted in nursing school..then moved.. away from all free babysitters. :( Boo.

Adam said...

Be careful what you say Emily! I was just saying that I was tired of washing the same laundry every day and that I wanted to do something that mattered for today. So, my husband got down in his back with his sciatic nerve and Chloe started throwing up. Now I have all kinds of different laundry to do.

LOL, I'm just kidding.. Sort of.. I feel you girl, I've been in a rut too. Just wanting to do something that I don't have to wait 18 years to see the results from.

I came over here to see what you were talking about being nervous about on facebook. Sending a prayer up!

Dana said...

PS: that last comment was from me, not Adam. Whoops!