Monday, March 8, 2010

Standing in the gap.

From a Christian and spiritual stand point I believe that Jesus stood in the gap for me, so that I would have a way to heaven. I believe that He and He alone is the only way to heaven. He stood in that gap for me.

On a physical stand point, I believe that God puts people in our lives to stand in the gap for us when life gets hard. When I found out my momma had passed away I felt like my whole world was turned upside down, thrown around and robbed. I didn't know how I would cope with it. I didn't know how I would learn to carry on. And that's when my family, friends and church stood in the gap for me. They prayed, they called, they took care of my kids, they provided (and are still providing) meals, they sent flowers, sent cards, emailed, text.. you name it they have done it.

I was trying to explain to Kent last night that when momma died I felt like my family chain had weakened. We have one less link now. But the more I thought about it, the more I thought.. well maybe not. When a chain gets shorter, it's actually harder to break. And I think with me and my family we had to get stronger in order to keep carrying on. So, maybe in the long run we will be stronger. Would I rather have my momma back.. of course.. but if this is the hand we were dealt then why not be stronger for it.

So with all that said, I have learned that not only did God provide a way for me to enter heaven through His Son's death on the cross, but He has also provided and continues to provide people to stand in the gap for me here on earth. So that while I go through this difficult time and have this new gap in my life, He is providing people to fill in that gap. Not that my momma can ever be replaced, but that the pain can be lessened.

God will make a way,
Where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and strength for each new day
He will make a way, He will make a way.
By a roadway in the wilderness, He'll lead me

And rivers in the desert will I see
Heaven and earth will fade
But His Word will still remain
He will do something new today.
God will make a way,

Where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and strength for each new day
He will make a way, He will make a way.

-God Will Make A Way
Words and music by Don Moen

5 comments:

Christy said...

Emily you wrote this so beautifully and how blessed we are to have our Lord fill in those gaps for us when we've been knocked on our knees. So glad that GOD placed so many people there for you to fill in that gap and he'll continue to do that.

Praying for you. Grief is not easy.

TeacherCHS said...

Did you realize he is also the one who wrote "If You Could See Me Now"?

EmilytheCreative said...

When I was looking for the song I didn't but once I saw the name I did.

Taking Heart said...

I love that song, one of my long time favorites... and very fitting.

I am so sorry for you loss... Heaven's gain.

Praying for you now and in the coming days.

~Erin

Brenda said...

Thinking about Candy Sue today. Felt better after reading your last couple of entries. Continue helping others by sharing your wonderful family and in the way God is providing and guiding you daily in the words of your Journal. Keeping you and your family in my prayers. I feel so blessed to have been a friend to your Momma. Have a Blessed DAY..
B'Frieze