Saying Good-bye

Last night my church had a fellowship meal. It was in a small part in honor of my family and us leaving. Giving everyone a chance to say good-bye to us, love on us, encourage us. My pastor gave a devotional directed at Kent and I to continue to pass on the legacy, that our parents gave us, to our children. That legacy being living a Godly life. It was truly bittersweet. Many of those people have known me since my birth. None of them have known me less than a decade. They are all family. I sat there, trying my best not to cry, looking around the room and remembering different memories from each person I saw. I watched my children running around and playing and being hugged and loved on by various people. I was filled with joy and sadness. One second I'm thrilled to be leaving and starting a new chapter in our life book, but so sad to be leaving my church family and my actual family. Today the kids and I were at the park and I realize they didn't have any drink cups. So I knew my parents' house was just a short 5 minute drive, so we drove over there and they played while I talked to my brother and daddy. Spontaneous trips that like will be no more. It's odd to think "this time next week we will be in South Carolina". Or only _ more nights that we will be staying in this house. And that is like 3 more night currently. 3 more nights of staying in the house that we built. That's has been hitting me harder than I thought it would. But in a whole this whole moving this hasn't hit me yet. And I keep asking myself, "when is it going to finally hit me?" I wish it would already, so I can have a good cry and move on. I know our family will come up to visit and we will come home often (the kids and I are coming back for a week after we move up there.. lol) but it just won't be the same. Saying good-bye is never easy when you truly care and love the people you are leaving. I never thought we would be moving away or at least not this far. Maybe the town over or at the most an hour or so. But to be 5 hours away, it's something that this time last year wasn't even on our radar. And yet here we are. Preparing ourselves to move.. To say good-bye.