In the here and now

I'm 6 days away from going back to my GYN doctor to have my "lady bumps" reexamined.  I'm not thrilled about it.  But it is what it is.  In all honesty, I haven't been overly nervous about the visit-until a few days ago.  I guess the closer it gets, the more I think about it and worry over it.  I know I shouldn't worry.  I am called to hand it over to God.  But it's hard.  It's strange, really.  I have a very real peace about the whole thing.  I guess because I know that whatever the outcome may be, that it was always apart of God's plan.  Which is easy to say at this moment in time.  I pray that I can say that again if things don't go "my way".


Kent and my anniversary is coming up- 13 days from now.  We will be married for 9 years.  Crazy to think that almost a whole decade has come and gone.  I still feel like we should be married only a year or two at this point.  But so much of life has already past us by.  Granted, we have lived a lot of life in those years- 3 kids, 3 different houses, 6 different cars, 2 different churches, a major job promotion, a major move of hometowns, vacations, holidays, balls games, etc..etc..etc. A lot of life lived indeed.


I'm in a rut.  A writing rut, a creativity rut, a want to do more with my life rut.  I feel the need to do more and I am not really sure what more is.  That last sentence probably didn't make a whole lot of sense.  Ah, that's OK.  This whole post is so random that I am not expecting many (any?) people to even get this far.  I don't know what it will take to get out of this rut.  But I sure do wish the answer would reveal itself soon.  Make my life a whole lot easier.

Random.. describes this post.  Describes my current life.