Explaining

Although I know no one is looking for an explanation...

I'm a do what works type parent. Not "soggy" and not "crunchy".. just me"y".. lol. Sorry had to do that. ANYWAY.. with Nathan we have tried everything. Feeding on demand (thusly is why I was up every 90 minutes last night), cosleeping (which he will tolerate for about 2 hours and then kick and kick until put back into his bed), rocking/swaying (again he will sometimes tolerate but mostly won't), Kent getting up with him (he will then scream bloody murder until yours truly comes to take him away and feed him), we've tried crying it out (although that's really hard to do when the baby is in the room with you). See we've tried it all. I've never had a baby of mine to not sleep through the night at least once by this time. And I think it has a lot to do with me feeding him on demand for this long. It's one thing (in my humble noncrunchy, nonsoggy opinion) to feed the baby on demand the first 3, 4 even 5 months along. But past 6.. eh.. See folks.. when it comes to my sleep I'm lazy. I will do the quickest thing that works to get back into my bed to sleep. I love sleep. I'm a sleep-o-holic. "Hi, my name is Emily and I'm a sleep-o-holic". There I said it. Anyway, I did it because it was the quickest and fastest way to get him back to sleep. Thusly making him rely on me to get him to sleep. Which I know he can put himself to sleep because he does for both of his naps and when he goes down at night for the first time. After that.. he needs me.. or at least thinks he needs me.. to go to sleep. I am truly at the end of my rope. I have been functioning on 4-6 hours of interrupted sleep for the last 4 months. I'm tired and by the end of the day (especially now that school has started) I'm done and so tired my head hurts. So when my pediatrician suggested the same thing we were considering to do anyway, I agreed and knew it was the next step we had to take. If in a week to ten days we are still in the same boat that we are currently in.. then I will jump off the nearest cliff.. no, no, no.. we will figure something else out.

Anyway, just felt the need to fully explain our situation. And to get it all out of my mind.

*Edited to add* I was feeding Nathan shortly after turning the computer off and getting into bed.. and was thinking about my post.. and how I stated a first how I was a "sleep-o-lic"... which I obviously meant.. "sleep-o-holic".. See? I need more sleep!