Why me?

Why am I a mother? And why am I a mother to Jon Kent, Zoey and Nathan. Why not 3 other kids and why not another mother for the 3 that I have?

These are questions that have been running through my mind lately. And the reason they have been running through my mind lately is because I have been questioning my mothering. Of late, I have just been feeling overwhelmed with my responsibilities. Have these 3 lives that I am supposed to mold and shape into productive citizens.

Am I doing it right? Am I doing enough?

More questioning.

Are my kids getting what they need from me or am I selling them short? Are we doing enough educational activities? Are we doing enough fun activities? Are we having enough family time? Am I a good example for them to look to?

Motherhood is hard. And sometimes I want to bust out of it like my hair is on fire.

I want to know, now, if I am doing enough. Or if I need to do more. I want the very best for my 3 and I want to be able to give it to them. I want their little love tanks to be full and never lacking.

So, again, why me? Why am I their mother?

Jon Kent and Zoey's Birthday Party

Dressed and ready for their party.

Whoa!

Wheeeee!

Nate and his Aunt Kerith

Zoey playing with Kayla Grace

It might not be his party but he wasn't going to give up the throne!

Party room

Blowing out the candles!

Picture with Monkey Joe!

Gift time!

All the gifts.

Kent playing.

Kent resting.

Letters to Santa

I got this idea from Karen and the kids loved it! We will have to make this a yearly thing.

First, they looked through all the toy books we got in the mail.

Jon Kent and Zoey were helping Nathan.

Nathan gluing down his pictures.

Jon Kent doing the same.

All finished.

Nathan decided he would let his big brother hold his picture for him.

Jon Kent's letter

Zoey's letter.

Nathan's letter.

Out takes from our photo shoot

Zoey's 4th Birthday

Zoey had a great day. She got up and got what she wanted for breakfast.. of course with 4 candles stuck in it. She got to unwrap her presents, which were a pony toy and a trunk of princess dresses. She was thrilled with both. After she opened her presents we got ready and headed to have our family pictures made. They turned out fairly well. My head looked like a frizz ball, but at least all the kids were cute. We then went to shop for the remainder of our Christmas list and then headed to eat lunch. Naps were short or none at all today. The kids played around most of the afternoon inside since it has been raining for most of the day. Then we let Zoey pick where she wanted to eat for supper and she chose Chick-fil-a. So we ate there, let the kids play for a bit and then headed to church. We took snacks tonight for the Cubbies which was juice and cupcakes to celebrate Zoey's birthday. I was told they were a hit with all the kids. I did apologize to the parents I saw that it was my fault their kids were wired. SORRY!!! :) We then headed home and the kids got baths and then headed to bed. Zoey also got a lot of cards in the mail from her grandparents and great grandparents. Now it's time to gear up for the party which will be this Friday night. The kids are looking forward to it! So, Happy 4th Birthday, Zoey!!!! I hope you had a great day!

Happy Birthday, Zoey

Dear Zoey,

I never dreamed I would be having you so soon after having your brother. But you are full of surprises. We call you our wonderful surprise baby. And indeed you are. In the four years you have been here, you have brought so much joy and happiness to my life. I look at you and so far this world, it's cruelness and cold ways, haven't fazed you. You just chug right along with a smile on your face. And girl, you don't meet a stranger. Everyone knows who "Zoey" is. And everyone knows me, because I'm "Zoey's mommy". You are beautiful, loving, smart, kind, compassionate and tough. I never thought I would have a girl who loved worms, frogs, snakes and all things bugs like you. But you do and I wouldn't change it for the world. I hope that your fourth birthday is a great one and that you are showered and spoiled just like a princess should be. I love you, my sweet baby girl. Always and forever will.

Love,

Momma

I just did whaaa?

I have been a mother for over 5 years now. So I know all about not sleeping. In fact, I am pretty sure most nights when I do have to get up, ahem- several times, that I do so mostly asleep. Otherwise, I would never sleep. So when my mom and I decided to stay up allll night and do Black Friday shopping starting with the midnight madness at ToysRUs, I thought.. "I've got this". I was pretty hyped up, too. Caffeine, adrenaline.. call it what you want I was pumped and ready to go.

We get to ToysRUS at 11:45pm. The parking lot was packed. I figured as much. Get to the back of the line that was long. And when I say long, it was around the back of another building, across the road from ToysRUS.. so yeah.. long. I had on jeans, a t-shirt and a sweat shirt. That was it. Did I mention it was cold and windy? Yeah, it was both of those. We waited in line for 2 hours... freezing. By the time we got in the store the line to check out was CRAZY! And everything we went in to buy was sold out. Crud and crap all rolled in to one.

So by this time it was 2:15am and OLD NAVY was set to open at 3am. We make our way over there and there is already a line outside of their, too. I told momma that if we weren't in the store in 30 minutes from the time it opened that we would forget it. Thankfully, they let everyone in until the check out line got too long then they started making people wait. I grabbed a few things and took a place in line. Let my momma shop then she got in line with me and I went and finished my shopping. It worked out well. While we were standing in line a pregnant lady's water broke. Her husband looked scared. Also, right when we got to the front of the check out line, a girl (teenager) with a bag FULL of stuff came up to the women in front of us and asked if she could pay them to let her in front of them ($20). The ladies said no that it wasn't fair for all the people behind them who had been waiting. I agreed.

After OLD NAVY we went and ate some breakfast and then headed to Target. While in Target looking around at the toys a fight broke out in the electronics. We finished up our shopping and went to the back of the check out line that was wrapped around the inside of the store.. twice! After Target was K-Mart and then Wal-Mart. Both places weren't crowded by the time we got there. All in all we did well. I got a lot of my shopping done. And I think we had a good time.

Oh, by the time I was able to take a nap.. I had been awake for 30 hours straight.

I'm still recovering.